Putting so much pressure on myself that I should be doing this, I should be doing that, I presuppose the consequences of not doing these things. And yet, all the while, I don't feel to do any of them with total conviction. 

The only thing I really want to do is just be, here in the moment, connecting with my life essence now. That place is good, right, safe, wise, perfect, whole and complete fulfilment. In that space, everything is in order, and everything necessary does actually get done. If I died there, I could be in no better consciousness to pass over. 

How fortunate am I to know that place. This experience beyond my mind, words and thought is so simple, so healing, so everything. Nothing is more important than this.

"The highest virtue does nothing. Yet, nothing needs to be done. The lowest virtue does everything. Yet, much remains to be done." (Tao Te Ching chapter 38)